Taking care of addie, Taking care of me

I love taking care of Addie. (Is she taking care of me too?) I spend a lot of my day laughing. She smiles and laughs at me, I smile and laugh at her. Until she goes to bed. And in the morning...when I open the little curtains that enclose her nook, there she is smiling at me again. Is this for real?

I still feel stressed about MY work and MY time, but I have to admit...I did that before she was born. I don't like to face this fact, but it's true. Along the lines of "Taking Care of Me"...today I had a success. My husband watched Addie and I went to my office to paint. I spent 5 hours in my office and painted for one of them. Though I wish I had spent more time painting, this was a Miracle! I listened to Michael Jackson's BAD, danced my ass off, sang and painted all at the same time. It felt good. REALLY GOOD. It's funny, I remodeled my office a year ago so I could paint in it...and this was my first time. One step at a time...

Today best friend Fern shared one of her breakthroughs with me. She told me that working on her list of "things to do" was not the thing that made her feel productive, but it was prioritizing the things that had heart and meaning for her...and doing those things FIRST that actually made her feel productive. Once she did her ART (first)... she felt more available to do other things on her list. 

The truth is, most of us know what we would like to be doing but spend our time actively not doing it. How we justify this (time, money, being realistic, need more information, judging our desires, etc.) is simply hiding a bigger soul dilemma. What if we gave our self permission to follow our intuition/desire and trust that what we are wanting is what is wanted from us.

Addie RULES!!!