+ What have I been up to?

This. Hanging guilt-free with my Munchkin. I have been considering taking January "off". I'm not sure what that means, but I need to go into my cave for a while, dream and soak in a little winter-wisdom for myself. No need to put the pressure on. I long to practice what I "see" in my intuitive work, for my clients and for myself. I'm planning on spending a night this week working on my New Year's collage. My "X: marks the spot"- the gauge that shows me where I am presently. (Steve is also going to be doing his.) My feeling right now is, I would like to experience breakthroughs in Painting, Health and Gratitude this year. I'm playing with it, keeping it loose. Mercury (the information planet) is in retrograde, so one must acknowledge that there is more information "coming in"and not get too attached (or upset) if direction/focus/intention changes. Maintaining balance is a dance, my friends, because movement is the nature of the universe. Nothing stays the same. Everything changes.

Thinking of all the Miracles

Today is the celebration day of Our Lady of Guadalupe. All over the world people are lighting candles and making pilgrimages to her shrines and places of worship. In my own journey, she has played a significant role - bringing hope, joy, beauty and comfort through the many ups and downs over the last 8 years.  I may never know why this Goddess has come into my life so strongly, but I feel incredibly lucky to know her.

Since I have a busy day ahead of me, I got up early to do my ritual. As always, she appeared overflowing with abundance, connected to the never-ending flow of the universe, ever-compassionate and giving. She said I was working/trying too hard and showed me how I can trust the Universe more, trust my magic, trust my relationships, and release control. When I am connected to her, I can see these things so clearly. Her Message: Miracles are happening.... right now.  Trust and believe. You are not meant to do it alone. So, I am off to buy roses and candles to decorate her altar.

Thank you!

What abundance! I came home from my new moon ritual to find a unsolicited check for $2500 from my in-laws to help with the house. Thank you Bob & Dixie, thank you!! A financial windfall was on my to-do list for Saturn! More abundance to come!

So, Art & Magic works! What is Magic? the art of changing consciousness at will (dion fortune). When I make the time sit quietly & meditate, build my altar, release my fear, make my wishes known - this or something better, for the good of all and harm of none - and ask for help from the Mystery.....I am always answered. That's right. I am always answered. The form & timing is unpredictable, but help does arrive. Lessons are learned and I grow again. Forgetting this, is a recipe for suffering.

I have to admit, my head has been a bit foggy lately. I have been struggling with wanting to DO more than one person (much less one mother) could possibly accomplish in a day! Consequently, there has been a lot of negative self-talk bringing me down. Energetically speaking, this creates soul loss and opens the doors for old fear-based patterns to seep back in. Oh what suffering. Forgetting what I know is a hard row to hoe. So what to do? Remember who I am through Ritual.

I began to weed my spiritual garden last night in my new moon ritual but I have more to do. One major block I realized is that I have been VERY wound up (physically) and need to address that first.  So this week, I commit to scheduling a massage for November and one for December. I've needed to do this since I began my physical training. No more excuses. Pamper Now!

NOTE TO SELF: I am extremely good at helping clients & students come into the present tense, clear the crap,  re-affirm what they are truly committed to and know what their next steps are. I can do this for myself if I commit to creating the space for it each day.


New Structure Priorities, cont.
1. Time for Reflection

Fall Equinox Altar

I got an early start on my Fall Equinox Altar and decorated a new journal. Most of the cloth I use on my altars is fabric I use in my sewing projects - materials infused with the connection to spirit.  Tomorrow is the full moon in Pisces. Neptune asks, what are we dreaming about? My answer...a home of my own, a mortgage payment, a community of other families and artists, and a studio that is on my property...huge, light, big enough for large canvases and classes.