Tuesday, January 12, 2010

+ standing by

day 2 of standing by.
what's standing by?
i want to start painting.
I'm not set up.
How is this going to happen?
maybe during addie's nap.
it's hard to put "my life" into little spaces of time.

people keep contacting me regarding painting classes,
for themselves, for their kids.
it's hard to say no, wait, soon, maybe, i don't know
I want to say YES.
I want to say "I know what I'm doing" and "I'm a professional."
I want people to trust me.

but really, I want to trust me. Trust my needs.
I need the time off. I need to
honor winter,
paint myself
I am practicing saying YES to me first.
that's a big deal for anyone

the studio in winter

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